December 2010
Ruined my day...
I got a 67 on my bio test and now I have an 83. Literally have been crying for the past… oh 15 minutes. Fuck. Which means, if I can’t raise my grade three points, at least, all of the A’s I have in my other classes don’t fucking matter. Fuck.
Oh, and to add onto that, I have a sore throat that hurts to talk, and I have musical rehearsal… I’m lip-syncing...
“Whatever happened to chivalry? Does it only exist in 80’s movies? I want...”
– Olive Penderghast: Easy A
Noah: I'm not usually like this, I'm sorry.
Allie: Oh yes you are.
Noah: I could be fun, if you want. I could be pensive, uhh... smart, supersticious, brave? And I, uhh, I can be light on my feet. I could be whatever you want. You just tell me what you want, and I'm gonna be that for you.
Allie: ... You're dumb.
Noah: I could be that. Come on, one date, what's it gonna hurt?
Allie: Mmm, I don't think so.
Noah: Well what can I do to change your mind?
“Summer romances begin for all kinds of reasons, but when all is said and done,...”
– The Notebook
Music
I like finding music that isn’t as mainstream. I don’t know why but they’re… I don’t know, realer? (is that the word for it?) They’re the ones with true emotion that fit your mood perfectly.
Resolutions
My priority list for the next few months… lets call it a pre-resolutions list.
Get straight A’s: I’m sure I can do it… I almost have it, actually! The only classes that I don’t have A’s in right now are Bio (85) and APUSH (90).
Be on the varsity tennis team: this, too, I also can do. My tennis coach said that soon I’ll be able to be at a varsity...
Resolutions
My priority list for the next few months… lets call it a pre-resolutions list.
Get straight A’s: I’m sure I can do it… I almost have it, actually! The only classes that I don’t have A’s in right now are Bio (85) and APUSH (90).
Be on the varsity tennis team: this, too, I also can do. My tennis coach said that soon I’ll be able to be at a varsity...
Snow Day...
Today should have been a snow day. Why?
An extra day to study for my Bio test.
An extra day for my “real life” project…. which is a joke.
The chance to sleep in.
Drink hot chocolate.
But…. no…. the snow had to stop and not cause a snow day. Sometimes I wish Maine was like one of those Southern states who close school with an inch of snow on the ground.
That...
Thinking...
I really hate thinking. Not just because it’s frustrating and time consuming, but because it leads you to realizations that you’d kept from yourself. Emotions that you’ve pushed down inside of you just surge out like a pipe bursting. The bad realizations you shove back inside of you. You try to run away from it… but like a leash, you’re always connected to it....
“Out of the night that covers me,
Black as the pit from pole to pole,
I thank...”
– Invictus by William Ernest Henley
“Life is like photography, we use negatives to develop.”
– Unknown
Pain...
There are various different forms of pain. There is: physical pain that makes you scream, mental pain that makes you scream, and emotional pain that makes you scream. If you haven’t caught on; pain tortures a soul. Any form of those pains are the worst thing a human being can feel. Pain is an easy feeling; unlike those of it’s family. When there is pain, you know what you’re...
“Men love because they are afraid of themselves, afraid of the loneliness that...”
– V.F. Calverton
Dreams...
Dreams are a funny thing. Like that space between being awake and asleep; you aren’t able to distinguish between the two on which is reality and which isn’t. Those are the dreams I hate; because for however long you’re dreaming those good dreams, when you finally wake up, everything is so pale in comparison to the vibrant colors that inhabited your dreams. Sometimes dreams...
“And when you’re feeling lonely, look up at the moon. Somewhere, someone is...”
– Unknown
“Sometimes it’s the smallest decisions that can pretty much change your...”
– Unknown
“From the start they were like positives and negatives; they were bound to meet.”
– Me
“In three words I can sum up everything I’ve learned about life: it goes...”
– Robert Frost